All my friend ever wanted was my presence
because that is the ultimate way to give love.
I hope my friend understands that my lack of presence wasn't about him
so much as it was about me and my habitual tendency to disembody and dissociate
when feelings or situations become overwhelming.
I'm on a lifelong quest to overcome this conditioning
(perhaps we all are).
I'm on a mission to be present with myself and others as much as possible,
which basically means
being a beacon of Love for myself and others
and courageously facing Truth that comes from all directions
including the Truth that hurts
and the Truth that liberates
and sometimes, those Truths are the same.